Slightly Insane - because everyone is....

I've never known my father.
I don't even know his name.
I have NEVER spoken to my mum about it.

I'm 20 years old
He may be dead, he may be alive. I'm not sure I even want to meet him.
I would just like to know who he is, or at least the story of my conception

I know:
My mum had a paternity test done for someone she'd seen:
It was negative
My mum didn't find out she was pregnant until she was 4 months gone
(due to just comming off the pill and her periods not returning)
She would have had an abortion, the GP said she couldn't
My cousin mentioned a 'Mick' lodger person he remembers.

Now I need to decide, do I ask my mum? I'm scared I may hurt her, as it can't have been a good time for her, 22, pregnant, failed paternity test, child she didn't want, post natal depression. Yet she's a very strong and determined person and I'm worried she'll be angry too!

What do I do?

Alexa
xxx

....and peeing with the toilet door open.

Don't you just love walking around the house naked and being able to be free with yourself and your surroundings. Especially wen it's boiling hot outside and it's best to be in no clothes.

Just remember not to walk infront of the windows in your nudey pants.... A quick drop to your knees and crawl to cover has to be done then =P (yes I have had to do that this morning)

Ouside again me thinks to enjoy the sun

Hope you're enjoying your day =)

Alexa
xxx