I joined the gym, aren't you proud of me?

I am still slightly in awe of the fact that I have now been to the gym and swimming twice since Thursday. Granted I am not pushing myself amazingly hard as I know what happens when your ideas get the better of you. It never quite works and you just end up feeling achy and cursing the world. Just like that friggin Davina Mccaul work out video with the squats from hell. I think that squats were created by the devil (NB: I'm not in anyway religious, sorry to offend anyone who is!) as every time I do them I cannot walk correcly for days afterwards. In fact I think I resemble something out of a Western movie from decades ago with my bent legged walk. Yet I walk in pain. They walk like that because... well I don't know it's just the cliché cowboy-western walk is it not?

But yes anyway, I will have to pay about £17 a month since I am a student yet due to the fact that is usually cost £7 to go to the gym and that an adult membership is £35 a month then I think I am rather well off. Unfortunately there is a stupid join up fee of about £30 which will lighten my pocket but I'm sure that it'll alll be good in the end!

Thursday was my first day and I have to say that I was very nervous. I wasn't as nervous as the guy who gave us the induction though. He was very lovely and kind but he stuttered a bit and you could tell by his selfconscious demeanour that he wasn't the usual gym worker who tend to be very self assured etc. He obviously wasn't one of the 'cool kids' at school. I immeadiately took a liking to him.

I felt a bit stupid when I first started using the bikes as I couldn't quite get the pin out to lower the seat which was embarressing and then made me wonder if you were even supposed to remove the pin which I'm sure made me colour up to a lovely red colour. I hate the fact that I always blush.... Grrr......

I finally got the pin out and glanced through the programs picked a manual and then begin palying with my MP3 player to find something to listen to. Obviously the bikes don't have any electricity to them and it's your movement which keeps the screen on -this took me about 3 attempts to realise which then made me understand why the Gym guy (I should really find out his name) said that they were self powered!- I finally started pedalling and really got into it. I then moved to the corss trainer and the rowing machine. Each time trying to remember what I used to do at the last gym (during year 10 I joined the gym next to my school and went on a Tuesday and a Thursday)  and also trying to look like I knew what I was doing, and reading the instructions whilst pretending to check my MP3 player.

I didn't dare try the running machine. Not yet. I'm most definately not fit enough, and running next to Adam who easily completes 7km in half an hour (though of course very sweaty etc) but still he has the fitness and the driver to do it would make me feel very small and stupid.

I also have a a propensity to need to pee whenever running on a running machine. I don't know why.

I even get off and go to the toilet to find what felt like I was going to embarress myself turns out to be so insignificant that I finally understand how my mum felt when she was heavily pregnant with me!

I also did some sit up's. The gym guy came and commented that I was doing it right and well done... I didn't tell him that I knew because I used to do an abs session at my last gym!!! It made me feel 'wiggly' non-the-less. (Wiggly is my reference to how a happy puppy seems to wriggle with excitement rather than wag!)

Adam and I also went on Saturday and did some swimming too. Due to forgetting my sports top (which Acts as my sports bra a I have small enough breast and I know if I wear a sports bra I will have non, thus I wear my sports top over my bra but under my top.... I'm not ready to show off my middrift whilst working out. Not that I'm big, but my stomach isn't toned and thus i hate the way it bunches together when I lean over on the bike.... Gosh I'm more of a priss than I thought!

Ah well. Tonight I'm going to work and then I'm going to the gym. I'm really looking forward to it and tonight the sauna shall be on, so I'm looking forward to that very much!

xxx